I fear this might be a rambling post. A thousand apologies.
Walking today in Los Angeles, there was, I kid you not, a pedestrian bottleneck of people trying to cross the street and socially distance ourselves from each other. During a walk today, a woman approached. I screamed, “Stay the fuck away from me. Do not come any closer. Talk to me from where you are!”
Obviously, she turned and ran in the other direction. I would’ve. Was my reaction rational? Fuck no. I am TERRIFIED—we are all TERRIFIED. Having an unhinged Goldfish hued Hitler at the helm doesn’t help.
He keeps being covered in real-time, when he shouldn’t be. The MSM, in my very humble – fuck that, in my very real opinion, must cover him responsibly. That means, providing context and fact checking him, and then running a segment or spinning a yarn for a news outlet. We cannot afford to be terrorized by his egregious lies RIGHT NOW, can we? We never signed up for him, those of us who didn’t vote for him, but if he wasn’t such a malignant narcissist, perhaps he might have a shred of decency or humanity. I’m not a schmuck, I know he doesn’t.
I don’t know about you, but I’m losing my shit. Financially, emotionally and ways I’ve yet to discover. I checked my pantry today and realized that I’ve amassed 7 bags of various chips. Why? I don’t know. I don’t eat chips, not really. I’m a grazer, so I like snack-y foods. Yeah, it’s a snack-y food, but I’m hoarding tortilla and potato chips, and for the life of me, I cannot figure out why.
Last week, I wrote a post about people with Graves’ being at risk for Coronavirus right here on MPS. I saved it to draft and just republished it here. I took it down because I got so much backlash from others with Graves’, accusing me of fear mongering. I wasn’t trying to scare anyone. Rather, I wanted to provide information about Graves’ as it pertains to being immunocompromised. I thought I was being smart. Whether I was or not, removing the post was me slipping backwards, into thinking that I was bad and wrong and causing harm. If I’m being SUPER honest with myself, it’s my unresolved guilt and shame for getting Graves’. I won’t take it down again, regardless of the outcome. I just know that I want as much real information as possible. Don’t we all?
I think we need dependable facts from scientists, epidemiologist’s, virologists, disease hunters, and doctors who know what they’re doing. Fingers crossed they do. We deserve to be informed, even if it scares the shit out of us.
Every day there’s a new death, a new rash of diagnoses and Goldfish pie hole telling ua to take meds that will kill them. In the next breath, he’s sacrificing OUR PARENTS, senior citizens. NOBODY IS DISPOSABLE.
Hey, Trump’s a huge fan of eugenics. He’s got immigrants in cages and a mouth full of white supremacist dog whistles to prove it, such as his latest, calling Coronavirus, Chinese virus. The WH defended him for saying it.
Why are lawmakers and other officials so damn scared of what that bloviating insecure twatsicle will tweet about them? I don’t get. If he called me a used tampon, or short fat Jew, I wouldn’t care.
I hear a news alert and my body jumps. Medical PTSD is no longer relegated to forthcoming medical appointments, it informs my days. Aren’t we all scared? Don’t we need facts so we can make the best decisions for ourselves and the people we love?
Speaking of distractions, which I wasn’t, I’ve been watching, Tiger King on Netflix. “Doctor Bhagavan “Doc” Antle” talks about loving big cats in the creepiest most sexual way. The whole thing is deeply disturbing and worth watching. I think between the entire cast, maybe they have one set of teeth.
Also, if you haven’t been watching, Love After Lock-up,” it’s the worst kind of television. I can’t look away. Watch and let me know what you think.
My psychiatrist, Dr. H sent me this link to help me better manage my fear and medical PTSD. To be clear, it did not help, but I am glad he sent it. When I’m calm enough to research the information, it’s quite informative and continuously updated.
What’s helping you get through this? How are you coping with isolation, the onslaught of news, and how are you managing emotionally and financially?
Thanks for letting me vent/rant/ramble, etc…, Scissorheads, you are truly spectacular and I am grateful for all of you.